I don’t even know where to start anymore. I’ve had so much pain to deal with lately. Physical pain. I don’t know why, or what triggered my more-than-usual headache, but it’s been brutal. It has been raining a ton lately, which is not normal for Southern California, so I don’t know if that contributed, but regardless it sucks.

A few weeks ago I was at work and I sat at my bench for a while, and then when I got up from my chair, I almost fell over! The sensation I felt in my head was like an earthquake, followed by a giant wave, and destruction. My coworker watched me grab onto the desk next to me and asked if I was okay, and all I could say was “I just had a tsunami in my head!”

On Thursday I went to court for observation for a volunteer position I’m training for, and the overload of information and stimuli gave me a horrible headache, but instead of going home and rest, I went to Target to buy stuff, to the grocery store to buy food, went home and did laundry, picked up the kids from school, helped them with homework, prepared a very nice, healthy, stir-fry with a bunch of hand-cut veggies, cleaned up the kitchen after dinner and put my husband’s portion in the microwave, since he was running late from work. Shortly after he got home, I crashed in the couch and wasn’t able to move anymore. When I finally decided to get up and go to bed, around 10 pm, my husband made a comment about not leaving him behind downstairs, and I got pissed that I had to remind him of my horrible headache! That aggravation pushed me over the edge, and then my knee gave out and I couldn’t walk anymore, so I started hyperventilating and crying, and I only made it up a couple of steps on the stairs, and then I collapsed! On a pain scale from 1 to 10 my headache was a 10! I couldn’t move for quite a while and I asked my husband for an ice pack and to turn off all the lights. I really had to focus on my breathing and calm myself down. After about 15 to 20 minutes, I crawled up the rest of the stairs. With support of my husband I was able to go to the restroom before I laid down in bed. Any movement made my headache unbearable. I was given an Oxycodone to fall asleep, but because I get itchy from any narcotics, I was only able to sleep until about 2 am and then the itchiness kept me awake. I went to the volunteer training again the next morning from 9 to 12 and halfway through training I took 4 ibuprofens to relief some of my headache symptoms, but they didn’t even scratch the surface.  I was supposed to go to work right after training. While I was driving I decided it was too dangerous for me to be driving, because my head felt like a plasma ball! You know where you have those currents run to the edge of the globe when you touch it and you can see the pretty colors, and “electricity”…. That’s exactly the experience I was feeling!

plasma ball.png(internet image)

I just came home and went to bed!! I slept most of the rest of the day. Only got up to pick up the kids and wait for my husband to get home to take over from me, and I went back to bed. Now it’s Monday and I still feel like I’m recovering from that extreme episode!

I have another busy couple of weeks coming up though, so I hope this pain will become more bearable!